Words Will Never Suffice

by Monica
(USA)

Words can never express the pain that I feel for making you suffer in vain. Because of my feelings, because of my insecurities, because of my jealousy...you still pay. I have searched for ways to apologize to you and I know you know I have meant them but in our case, actions have always been stronger than words.

It's been 6 years and I still fuss over the same issues. I think it's time for me to let go and take the risk of fully believing in us and in our marriage.

Ever since we got married, it was supposed to have been a fresh start. Promises that I made that I sincerely meant to keep have not happened, because I am scared. I am scared to put my all in us just in case I get hurt.

I've been holding on to that for so long now that I need to start releasing my grip on this fear that lives within me every single day of my life.

You are the air I breathe, every step I take you are with me, my heart and soul belong to you and there is no where else in this world that I rather be than by your side.

Today I start a new beginning, today I will become a better more loving and appreciating wife, today I will cherish and treasure everything you go out of your way to do for me so that I can be happy and at peace.

Today I truly hope that you find it within you to forgive me, hold my hand and join me on our new journey in this lifetime together I love you <3