Apology Letter to My Best Friend and Lover

by J
(NY)

To my best friend ever, the best lover ever, my best everything ever. I'm so sorry for fighting with you for so long. You have been more than patient, forgiving, and my best friend. I wish I had treated you better.

I can't believe I wasted so much time on bull sh-t. I want nothing more than to fix our relationship. I will do whatever it takes to have you back in my life one way or another.

I'm not sure if you have already moved on or forgotten about me but I'm hoping you're doing great. I know things will never be the same and I am reliving our last day together 24/7.

I haven't slept in weeks. I am empty without you and feel like I'm falling deeper into hell as each minute passes without hearing your voice. I am doing all I can to fix myself and hope you can one day find the strength to forgive me for not being a man as you deserve.

I will always remember you as an amazingly special lady and I will always love you. You have been an incredibly powerful influence in my life. Words can't describe how much you mean to me.

In an incredibly short period of time you became the most important person I have ever encountered. You made me feel as if I was on top of the world and couldn't be held back by anything. All was possible with you at my side.

I hope that you will someday soon reach out to me and let me explain. I will never lie to you again, disrespect you in any way, judge you or speak to you poorly ever again.

I look forward to the day when I can prove to you that I want to forgive and I'm so sorry I couldn't forgive you before. I'm sorry I made you feel as if you needed attention from others to prove your of value.

You are an amazing person and shouldn't need anyone's approval. You are a beautiful woman and I still stand by what I've always said , "the next person to have you will be the luckiest man on earth".

I love you with all my heart and I wish you could have understood the pain I was going through. The confusion with the arguments, lies, the kids and wanting a family were overwhelming. I am sorry that you had to experience the negative side of me.

I hope you also found a value in me as I have found so much in you and please remember that I will never forget you. I miss you terribly, every minute, and wish I could hold you again and see you smile.

I miss your beautiful face and amazing personality. I would give anything for the opportunity to see you again. I know you truly loved me and I neglected you and thought your love would be there unconditionally. You will always be the absolute best.

Love you always...