Apology Letter to Mom and Dad

Mom and Dad I hope you still love me. It’s clear to see I've made the last half of this year hell for the both of you and I am sorry. I'm a disappointment and I see that. I know that I messed up, I've made the wrong choices. I know that I hurt you, I disobeyed you. I knew that before I did the things I did. It was wrong, and I still did it.

I'm young and yes I know that. No, I don't think I'm “grown”. Yes, I smoked. Yes, I had s*x, etc. No, I don't do drugs. No, that doesn’t mean I'm a “thot”, “whore”, “slut” or “freak” dad.

I know I can make foolish choices and I apologize for that. But tell me, if the boys were the same age in the same situation would they get the same treatment and punishment as me mom & dad? Probably not because they are “boys”.

Ya'll probably wouldn't even care. ..but I am sorry I have not been the best daughter. I apologize for always letting you down.

I don't intend to take your trust for granted. I know both of you just want the best and expect a lot from me. I hope you can still have faith and care for me.

I'm sorry I can't be who you want me to be but I hope that one day you can see me growing and becoming the young lady you hoped for.

I apologize for going behind your backs and breaking your hearts. If I had one wish, it would be to go back in time and erase all my mistakes to make you proud. I am truly sorry.

It may not seem like it but deep down in my heart is a sad girl who wants to see her parents happy even if she isn’t herself.

It's easier for me to write this than say this to you not because I'm mad at you, but because I don't know how. I'm scared that ya'll wouldn't even listen. I wish I could have the courage to say this to you though but I just don't.

I am afraid to tell you the things that are going on with me because either way there is gonna be some trouble so I always keep everything to myself.

I know I'm not a perfect daughter. I know I'm a bad daughter. But I am a daughter that wants to do nothing but make you proud. Nothing feels worse than seeing you and mom so mad and unhappy with me. Especially dad.

I am sorry that I have my own set of rules to live life and they are opposite to yours. I've been feeling sad for a while now. I don't want to be here. I hate it here. I feel so out of place.

Ya'll treat me like a little kid most of the time. Ya'll bash me for doing the same things ya'll did when you were younger. Sometimes I wish you’d never had me. Why did you have me? Do you even want me?

Well I know it feels like you don't. You threaten to send me away plus you said “I made a mistake, I need my money back.” If I'm too much to handle sometimes, why not send me away for a while? I think you should, I think maybe ya'll just need a break from me.

I know ya'll don't like me comparing myself or ya'll to anybody else but it seems like everybody else my age does similar if not the same things and they don't get in trouble. Or maybe it's because their parents don't go through their phones or watch their messages or maybe their parents just don't know but still.

Anyways, I am sorry for the hurt and disappointment I caused. I hope you can accept my apology. Just know that I love you even if I never say it.