Apology Message Board 15

Posted by FL

My dearest Lauren,

I am so sorry that I hurt you. And not just once, over and over. I wish I wasn't so messed up and that we could have our normal relationship back. I want my life back, and I want my girlfriend. I miss you a lot, I miss how we used to be. We used to just lay there and talk about everything, and now you can't even trust me.

Honestly, I love you with all my heart, with everything I have inside me. Love isn't a strong enough word. I promise that I will NEVER betray you ever again, and I know I should never have in the first place. I understand that it's over for us, but I want you to know, I will always love you, my beloved.

Posted by "You Know Who"

JMC...tonight I stopped by your house, stood at the door and I remembered so many moments... the important thing is that realized I didn't want to be there. I'm just so used to missing you. I'm scared to face reality and that I'm no longer part of your life, and I will ever be able to really tell you how deeply I'm sorry for what I did to us.

Posted by Me

Dear Wade, I'm so sorry for what I did to you. You trusted me and I just betrayed you.

I feel awful and just want to make it right. I just wanted to be honest and I should have just listened to you. Any chance we had together in now ruined and I can't believe I was so stupid. If you ever forgive me I promise that I will never ever betray you again. You trusted me even being separated and now it's gone.

I love you & I was scared. I was so happy when you came back and my stupid self just decided to screw it all up. I don't want things to end.. and I will apologize to you a million more times for what I did. If you don't forgive me, I understand. I can't stop crying and I wish that I could take it all back. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me

Posted by Natasha P.

I want to apologise to Tommy.

I'm so sorry for hurting you like that. Someone so amazing so special like you didn't deserve anything like that.

I was sitting here thinking how do I make it up to you? How do I show you I really do care? Though deep down I know whatever I do, even if you forgive me it still doesn't take away the fact that I once hurt you that bad.

I read some of these apologies on this board, it made me so emotional and depressed that all these people have lost the ones they love, and I don't want that to happen to me. Because you are far greater than any guy I've ever met. And what a fool am I to do what I did.

It's so painful to know that you were hurt, to see you not smiling, to think if this would ever heal. I really hate myself for being like that. My heart literally felt shattered. I regret it so so so much. And now I feel so ashamed of myself.

You do so much for me and yet I'm this horrible horrible person who's in your life. I'm suppose to be the one who makes you happy but all I do I s make you miserable. I need you and I can't afford to lose you. I will breakdown if you stepped out of my life. I'm sorry. I really am.

Posted by Michael

My Dearest Mary,

As days go by since our fight, I have been knocked out with your hurt. I know you have given me numerous chances in our relationship but here I am again wanting another one.

I want to work through our relationship problems and yes I understand why you are very doubtful but I want to be the man of your dreams and the only knight in shining armor you will ever look for. I have told you numerous times as well that you are the woman for me (craziness included).

Men if you are reading this.....she is one of a kind. She has made my life complete for the last 2.5 years and has helped me with my children and myself.

Yes as we all know, us men are stubborn and we sort of go off into the woods. This woman has been by my side through thick and thin in everything. I do not want to lose her. She means everything to me. Baby doll, I Love you now and forever...God Bless You... Love, Michael

Posted by 70'sgrrl

Where to begin... I owe apologies to so many. My behaviour was often reprehensible, mean. When it wasn't those things, I was screwing up in a hundred different ways.

I think most of you know why, though, or should by now. I was a victim of abuse since childhood, and I learned to loathe myself thoroughly. Not loving myself or being capable of loving, whenever I caught a glimpse of it, I had to snuff it out, quickly, passionately, furiously, so that the feelings of pain would go away.

No matter how much suffering I caused, or how much I bore, I never stopped trying to deal with what happened. Dealing with the abuse of my childhood, and its debilitating effects on everyone I have ever known, has been the focus of my adulthood. I'm finally healing, I believe.

I ask for your forgiveness and pray that you are healing, too. Love, xoxo

Posted by Anonymous

Dear John

I can't even begin to explain how I feel right now. It's almost been exactly one year since we first met, and almost exactly 2 months since we stopped speaking. I can't believe I let you go through my fingers just like that. You are an amazing person, lover, and most of all, friend.

I am so sorry for all of the pain I put you through & for pushing you away into someone else's arms. I can't even forgive myself for the way I treated you and I want you to know that you are forever in my heart.

You are my inspiration in life to see the good in people, because that is what you did to me; you saw the good in me. You made me better and I wish I could rewind the clock & have everything go back to the way it was when we had a bond that was closer than anything I've ever experienced.

I'm sorry, please forgive me. In time I really hope we can mend the pieces and become friends again.

Posted by Brian

Bridget E. M.,

I'm sorry about the way I handled myself. I don't know what went on in my head, I've never gone nuts over a girl like that before.

I haven't even liked any since I broke up with my gf when I was 20, and that's probably why I was all over you. I may have smothered a bit, but it was a glimpse of a feeling I had not had in a long time.

I had just gotten to my house and met you and thought this is it and I cant remember being happier. I said some ignorant and probably unforgivable things. I was depressed, and drinking when I shouldn't have and more than I should have... and that just brought out a side of me I didn't know existed.

When we dated I was always good to you and that was the real me. Afterwards I now know what went on in my head but I'm not going to explain it now. I wish you didn't just cut me off completely, it may have helped.

I honestly would have taken friends over nothing. So I guess my biggest regret is that I was such an ass and didn't realize that even if it didn't work out, it still could have been looked back on as a good time in life... but now its tainted.

Please don't hate me anymore and just try and remember everyone loses their way sometimes, you just had a front row seat to mine.

Posted by Sue

Kathy,

I'm sorry for having the affair with your husband. What's more, I'm sorry that it's gone on for many more years than you ever dreamed. When he and I first met, there were sparks that I couldn't ignore. Choosing to act on those sparks was wrong and I apologize deeply for that.

I apologize for the effects it's had on your marriage, your children any any other aspect of your lives together. He is now out of my life and I vow to leave him alone. I pray you can somehow find it in your heart to forgive me.

Sincerely, Sue

Posted by Carolyn

Charles V. you are my heart and will always be. Sometimes two pieces do not fit together but that does not mean there's something wrong with either of them. It just means they have to find the right puzzle to attach themselves to.

I will never forget New Year's Eve and will treasure it in my heart forever. I'm sorry I was not the correct piece for your puzzle. I will be loving you always. Take care and I wish you the best!

Posted by Olive

I am sorry for taking the bracelet. It was a misunderstanding -- I thought you had taken mine. Then you went behind my back and didn't trust me -- you have every reason to.

I am a jealous, insecure person and I sometimes loathe your actions or what you say but I am just as bad and have no right to judge you like that. I hope I find peace within myself. My actions reflect my emotions and I hope you forgive me.