Apology Message Board 59

Posted by Alice

To the lady cyclist I overtook on my own bicycle a bit too close this morning, I'm really sorry. Sorry that I made you feel like you needed to suddenly brake, and for the sarcastic way in which I responded when you called me up on it. I've had a really crappy week and was late for work.

I actually really care about other cyclists and feel really bad. I hope you can forgive me.

Posted by Yasmin

Dear Susan,

I'm sorry I reacted poorly when you asked me to do something your way. I'm even more sorry for calling your behavior bullying in front of the team. I caused you pain and suffering and I regret that.

I was wounded but that is not an excuse for my behavior. I'm very sorry for my actions. I hope you can forgive me.

Posted by Y K Kahn

dear Jloooooooooong,

I am so sorry for my behavior when we worked together. I had such a crush on you, you were the first man to show me kindness and approve of me. My father really didn't so it was a confusing time and I tried to hide my feelings with jokes and pranks that went too far. I treated you badly and disrespectfully when all you ever gave me was a job, skills, support, and friendship. After all these years, I beat myself up over it. I hope you can forgive me.

Sincerely,

Posted by Yasmin

Dear Yasmin...I'm sorry I've treated you so badly over the last 40 years. I've emotionally beat you up daily, punished you with food and exercise, and tormented you with abusive language and critical thoughts.

I've hated this body and this face, and made you feel unworthy and unloved. I'm working through these feelings and thoughts now, and I hope you can forgive me so we can stop fighting and find peace. you are worthy and you are loved for who you are inside.

Posted by 'Pretending I'm someone I'm not"

I apologize for all the times I acted like I was better than everyone. I apologize for all the times I made up crazy stories just to see people's reaction.

I am sorry for getting so drunk that I didn't remember what happened. I am sorry for the things I may have done or said that hurt others. Even though I don't remember it, I have to take responsibility for it.

All the times I lashed out at those who didn't deserve it. I was angry with myself and heartbroken. I tried to forget about it and numb the pain with drugs and alcohol. Just to end up hanging out with the wrong kinds of people.

I apologize to myself for not listening to my gut instincts, seeing the good in people who were never good. I believed lies I was told. I wasted years of my life going nowhere. I ran from a man I truly loved.

I have grown up now. I have learned that the world doesn't revolve around me. I have reflected on my past mistakes and sins.

PLEASE FORGIVE ME, I AM LEARNING TO FORGIVE MYSELF. GOD FORGIVE ME FOR WONDERING OFF YOUR PATH SO MANY TIMES.

I see now that all I can do is give it my all to be who I really am. I am caring, loving, kind and honestly deep down inside, I am a goodie goodie. I don't like to get into trouble. I do my best not to.

Posted by 'CG'

Dear Mum... I'm so sorry that I did not return home from work when you told me nana was about to pass away. But to bring it up now would cause you pain. I should have been there for you in your moment of grief, I love you very much and wish I could have been emotionally available to you.

I recall life was difficult, the business was failing, nan was very ill, dad was having an affair, I was due to go away over seas. I'm also very sorry for the fact I had an affair and a breakdown. It happened at a time you could have been switching off and exploring other possibilities.

Thank you for being there for me, you have been a rock when I needed you. My commitment is to take the very best care of myself I can, to look to make job changes which will support my recovery so that I give myself the best chance of health and independence.

I remember the beautiful picture of you on the wall when you married dad. I wish you peace, joy and freedom from suffering. God bless you.

Posted by Chris

Dear Charlie, I am so sorry about what I did. I know it came out of the blue and shocked you. I wrote to you before, and I am so greatful for the way you have been gracious and forgave me. That is a very special quality you have and I have always admired your pragmatic way, your positive focus and your get up and go.

It's been amazing having you as a friend all these years, many of my best memories are when we were doing things together, the shooting, fishing, traveling, getting drunk, driving too fast.... The time we spent in nature, by water or in the woods, and I'm so lucky we met as kids. I try to express my appreciation without bringing that thing up. You've been through such a lot lately and I wish you every happiness. Thank you once again. Your old mate. Chris

Posted by Christian

Dear S, I'm sorry for the way I behaved. I don't even know if you know. On some level you probably do.

I expect you must have carried some real discomfort around what happened, secrets can be difficult to keep, and I hope you have found the relief of being able to talk with someone so you have not carried it alone. I don't want to make excuses, I wonder if it might help you forgive me and be more free yourself if you knew that at the time I was living with the secret that I thought I had cancer. I don't think I was in my right mind, but never the less it only takes a second to make a remark or an action that can hurt.

If ever you need to talk about this, to express your anger or share this with another, I understand and support your right to have any support you need. I hope you will forgive me, and I wish you freedom from suffering.

Posted by Chris

Dear Chris, I need to apologise that I did not take you to the doctors to check out the lump you were very anxious about. I can't recall exactly what was going on at the time, we know the difficulties that were going on in general, mum and dad being as they were.

This was all rather overwhelming wasn't it? I know you were not getting the parenting and guidance you needed. The emotional support was not there, despite much love and commitment. We were very lucky in many ways, even privileged. Never the less, the alcohol abuse, the denial, the punishments to mat, the fear, the family secrets, the religious - misuse.

I so regret that I did not attend to this problem for you, and for the pain and isolation that occurred as a result. You did not have the situation you needed to face it, and I was not yet equipped to be a loving parent, I was only a child myself.

You are a good person, not the best, not the worst, just perfectly imperfect and doing our best. To that child which is me, my commitment is to be a loving parent to you now, to guide you with protection, and care, with firmness based on compassion and the opportunity to be the best you can be. I forgive you, and I won't hold this against you any longer. What's done is done. The slate is clean. Thank you for doing the work of recovery that you are, grieving is absolutely fine. God bless you. Chris

Posted by DJ

Andrea, I still think about you all the time.

I'm sorry I messed things up so bad between us. I know it's been a couple years, but I hope you've been doing well. I'm always wishing the best for you, and am sure you'll find your own brand of happiness if you haven't already found it. Sincerely, DJ

Posted by VS

I'm sorry for not meeting all of my commitments and deadlines.

Posted by Jason

Please forgive me someday. I'm sorry to have ruined our friendship. I behaved badly and my actions were those of a bad person. In the future I will keep my physical desires far away from our friendship. Hopefully we can talk again someday and I promise I will behave. If that's what it takes to keep you as a friend and keep me on the good path, it's way worth it.

Posted by Anonymous

You've always been the nicest person ever and I'm truly sorry to have treated you that way. I'm sorry for being unbelievably mean and I agree I was way out of line.

I can't imagine how much I hurt you but I really hope it doesn't break your soul or tarnish our relationship. Please don't blame yourself... I know you're thinking 'Hey, maybe I did something to hurt her feelings and that's why she's acting this way.' You've always been the kindest and sincerest and please accept my dearest apology. I truly regret my actions and will henceforth treat you better. I had to get it off my chest for the burden of hurting a pure kindred soul is too heavy.

Please forgive me.