An Apology Letter to Eric

by Sue C.
(London, Canada )

Dear Eric—The Man with an Amazing Voice... I am so very truly and deeply sorry for all the pain I caused you in the past. It was not your fault. It was all mine and I would like to own that now. You have waited so very long for validation and I would like to give that to you now.

I don't expect to be forgiven. I don't deserve it and it's not why I am writing this—I am hoping this will give you peace.

I know that I have hurt you deeply. My behaviour and actions were completely unacceptable. I am disgusted with myself.

I bullied you and I took my anger out on you—an innocent person. I was wrong and there is no excuse for what I did. I can only say I was in an excruciating amount of pain—I was wrong and there is no excuse for what I did.

I pushed my pain on to you and you didn't deserve that and I am truly sorry—I was wrong, beyond wrong—I should have dealt with my pain in a healthy manner. I am so sorry,

I see now how badly off I was and how I projected my pain and anguish on to you. It was never your fault. I hurt you and also took you away from precious time spent with your family. I was selfish and I am sorry for causing so much hurt to both you and your family.

I have learned from this that I have an internet addiction. I use it as an escape from life and I'm trying very hard to break this bad habit. I have signed up for a DBT (Behavioral Therapy Program) at the hospital and hopefully it will help me get my life back.

I need to start working again, hopefully DBT will be the answer. I am also on a more suitable medication and it seems to be working more effectively. I am also in therapy.

What happened will never happen again. I promise you that. I have put all these things in place so they should hopefully secure that.

I am so deeply sorry. I hope this gives you the peace you so rightly deserve.